Dear my 'disappeared' friend,
I don't know if you read my blog or not. This virtual letter is purposely written for you. How are you? I hope you are doing fine and becoming a better person. It's been more than a year since you disappeared and I don't even know where you are right now. I hope you are living in a 'bright' life and you have left your 'dark' life.
Now we are in 2012. I think in this new year, we should be a better person, and become more positive and mature. Last time we met, it was not in a good situation. Both of us got bad emotions, misunderstood each other, and some negative people interfered our friendship. I was not thinking properly, that was my mistake. You were too vulnerable. This combination was too bad for our friendship, and because of that, you disappeared. When I said my mistake, I should have 'run away' when you-know-what-happened-earlier happened at you-know-where. I should not let myself involved in that stupid situation and let the negative people became more negative. So, that was my mistake.
You being so vulnerable and did not want to think logically and rationally made things worse. It was seemed like I did all the mistakes and I was the bad person, but the truth was I did not even know what had happened between you and the negative people. After that, one bad thing after another happened, I was too tired, you disappeared, so I moved on.
Now, I don't know why, suddenly you came to my mind and I think it is the sign from Allah SWT for me to let the whatever stupid things happened before go away from my mind. I want to clear my mind from those things (even though I never thought about them since a year ago because I was too busy with my lab works) and start to forgive you.
Okay, actually I forgave you a long time ago, because I want to clear my soul from negative things. So, my dear, I forgive you, for whatever happened between us, and please forgive me too, for whatever I said or did to you. As Muslim, this is the best thing to do. I forgive you for the sake of Allah the Almighty, and please forgive me too, for the sake of Him.
If you read this, I would like to restart our friendship and restart everything. We did too many mistakes before, and I believe that this year should be a good year for us to start everything all over again. However, it depends on your decision. If you think you are mature enough, you know how to find me. In Malay we say, "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih." I have opened the door, just waiting for you to enter my house and be my guest.
Finally, I truly hope that you are in the right path now, or even if you are not in the right path yet, I truly hope that you are going to the right path. I pray for you everyday, just like I pray for all my friends everyday. I hope you are more mature and rational now. Amin...
Yours sincerely,
Norly
P/S: If the negative people read this, I also pray for you that you are going to the right path too. Insya Allah...And I thank you for making me stronger than ever.
I don't know if you read my blog or not. This virtual letter is purposely written for you. How are you? I hope you are doing fine and becoming a better person. It's been more than a year since you disappeared and I don't even know where you are right now. I hope you are living in a 'bright' life and you have left your 'dark' life.
Now we are in 2012. I think in this new year, we should be a better person, and become more positive and mature. Last time we met, it was not in a good situation. Both of us got bad emotions, misunderstood each other, and some negative people interfered our friendship. I was not thinking properly, that was my mistake. You were too vulnerable. This combination was too bad for our friendship, and because of that, you disappeared. When I said my mistake, I should have 'run away' when you-know-what-happened-earlier happened at you-know-where. I should not let myself involved in that stupid situation and let the negative people became more negative. So, that was my mistake.
You being so vulnerable and did not want to think logically and rationally made things worse. It was seemed like I did all the mistakes and I was the bad person, but the truth was I did not even know what had happened between you and the negative people. After that, one bad thing after another happened, I was too tired, you disappeared, so I moved on.
Now, I don't know why, suddenly you came to my mind and I think it is the sign from Allah SWT for me to let the whatever stupid things happened before go away from my mind. I want to clear my mind from those things (even though I never thought about them since a year ago because I was too busy with my lab works) and start to forgive you.
Okay, actually I forgave you a long time ago, because I want to clear my soul from negative things. So, my dear, I forgive you, for whatever happened between us, and please forgive me too, for whatever I said or did to you. As Muslim, this is the best thing to do. I forgive you for the sake of Allah the Almighty, and please forgive me too, for the sake of Him.
If you read this, I would like to restart our friendship and restart everything. We did too many mistakes before, and I believe that this year should be a good year for us to start everything all over again. However, it depends on your decision. If you think you are mature enough, you know how to find me. In Malay we say, "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih." I have opened the door, just waiting for you to enter my house and be my guest.
Finally, I truly hope that you are in the right path now, or even if you are not in the right path yet, I truly hope that you are going to the right path. I pray for you everyday, just like I pray for all my friends everyday. I hope you are more mature and rational now. Amin...
Yours sincerely,
Norly
P/S: If the negative people read this, I also pray for you that you are going to the right path too. Insya Allah...And I thank you for making me stronger than ever.
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