Monday, November 9, 2009

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, kenapa orang menjauhkan diri dari kita? Sedangkan kita tak pernah buat apa-apa pun pada dia. Nak kata ganggu hidup dia, lansung tak pernah. Apatah lagi nak menyusahkan hidup dia.

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, kenapa orang susah sangat nak balas SMS? Kita cuma perlukan jawapan, YA atau TIDAK je. Tak perlu terangkan segala macam benda. Hanya bagi jawapan mudah macam tu je. Tapi, sampai ke sudah pun SMS tak dibalas. Tak logik kalau kata tak perasan SMS tu, ataupun takde kredit. Alasan semua tu tak boleh diterima.

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, apa status aku dalam hidup seseorang? Kawan biasa ke? Kawan rapat ke? Ataupun bayang-bayang je? Yang sekejap muncul, sekejap hilang, tapi kemunculan dan kehilangan tu lansung tidak dipedulikan.

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, apa sebenarnya yang seseorang itu hendak dari aku? Jadikan aku koleksi kawan-kawan ke? Atau nak aku penuhkan hidup dia yang sunyi ke? Atau cuma angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa yang kadang-kadang melintas di muka?

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, apa tujuan seseorang itu hendak berkenalan dengan aku? Nak ambil kesempatan kat aku ke? Nak buat jadi kawan ke? Atau sebab sukakan aku ke?

Kadang-kadang, aku tertanya-tanya, bagaimana nak tahu seseorang lelaki tu ada perasaan kat perempuan? Dari caranya ke? Dari gayanya ke? Dari bahasanya ke?

Haih...malam tadi aku sakit kepala sebab terlalu banyak persoalan bermain dalam fikiran ni (selain daripada kerja-kerja research dan term paper Enzyme Technology). Aku susah nak tidur, asal terjaga je, terus persoalan ni semua muncul tiba-tiba dalam kepala aku. Aku usaha untuk lupakan tapi tak berdaya. Kalaulah Tuhan berikan jawapan kepada semua persoalan ni... (-_-)

Friday, November 6, 2009

Mr. Potato~ Mr. Potato~

N: (singing) Mr. Potato~ Mr. Potato~ Lalalalala...

U: Ko ni kenapa?

N: Aku kerinduan...heheheheh...

U: Nak muntah aku mendengarnye...

N: (singing) Mr. Potato~ Mr. Potato~



*****, if only you knew...

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Rasanya aku patut back off.
Let him go tu macam tak sesuai sebab aku kawan je dengan dia.
Aku patut senyapkan diri.

Tapi hari tu aku ajak dia teman aku pegi kenduri kawan aku.
But then aku rasa dia tak ingat.
Takpe la, back off is the best thing to do for now.

Aku rasa aku ni pun macam tak wujud dalam hidup dia.
Aku rasa dia tak pernah ingat aku pun.
Takpe, he has his own life, I have my own life.

Sekarang aku nak rilekkan diri.
Dah jumpa tempat untuk tenangkan diri.
Nak isolate diri kat tempat ini.

Aku perlu cari semangat aku balik.
Semangat yang telah hilang.
Eh, macam lagu XPDC pulak.
Tak kisah la, janji aku nak kuatkan diri aku balik.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Dia dah makin 'jauh'.
Semacam dia dah tahu apa aku rasa.

Dayem!
Aku taknak jadi benda macam ni.
Tapi terjadi jugak.

Apa pun dia dah 'jauh'.
Dia dah tak peduli.
Dia dah taknak layan.
Dia dah malas.

Huhhhh~


Update story: Dah beberapa hari aku back off, tetiba tadi dia contact aku balik. Pening~

Friday, October 23, 2009

What the?

I MISS YOU,

STUPID!





Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Drama of this week

  1. I went to MBO Ampang to watch Papadom with my colleagues and on the way back to IIUM, we were stucked in traffic jam. I was the passenger and I was dizzy and almost threw out. Huuu~

  2. Beyonce's I Am Concert has been cancelled (or postponed?). I don't know but lucky me, I didn't buy the ticket. If not, I'll be one of the mad buyers. Huhu.

  3. For the first time in my life (yes, FIRST TIME), I read a book. I mean, the whole book. I never read a whole book in my life. Usually I get bored in the middle. But this, I feel happy for myself and in addition to that, the book has opened my eyes to many things.

  4. I got an SMS from a stupid promotion and it costs RM8 of my credits. S**t!

  5. I haven't seen him for these 3 working days (Monday-Wednesday). Eventhough we are very near to each other, but we never bumped into each other yet. It's breaking the record, my own record to be specific. Haha~

  6. I missed him terribly but I hate it. It's like Neyo and Rihanna's song, Hate that I Love You. Dayem!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Why Men Love Bitches?

I love this book.
Finally I learned many new things about relationship.
And yes, the 'too nice' girl that Argov described in this book is totally related to me.
No wonder men ran away from me.

I suggest this book to every woman, regardless they are single, married or divorced.
This book can help us realize of our mistake for being 'too nice' to men.

Thank you, Sherry Argov for making me realize of my mistakes.
(^_^)

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